Bestfriend

I talked to someone lately, a past few months dah lah actually (after my breakup). We don't talk everyday but we have promised to be there for each other in any circumstances. He is my bestfriend. Knew each other since early of this year and get closed after few weeks. Don't have any feelings towards him since I was a girlfriend of someone and I knew he was deeply in love with this one girl. We've spent so much times with each other. Study, going to class, lunch, dinner, going to mart to buy some junkfoods, heart to heart conversation about each other problems at 12 pm onwards at the bus stop, every.single.thing. we did it all tgether. I have never realize that he is important to me, not after I left Kuching for my internship in my town, Miri. I've missed him so much I could cry..and there goes my stupid side, asked him who am i to him. So that's how everything changed.

"I couldnt put it in words but you are something to me. You are important to me. You know, I am not an expressive, I keep all on my own. If you are nothing to me, I won't spent almost of my times during our final semester with you. I won't keep all your selfies and our pictures in my phone and see it when I have times. If I don't have a feelings for you why do I still keep our conversation from the beginning until now? And you was once someone's girlfriend Ba. I keep telling myself to not be selfish and I try so hard to keep this feeling to myself. Ba, please don't worry too much, you have my words. I swear. I miss you"



i fall in love with my bestfriend.