Everyone kept saying to me “time heals all wounds.” At first I just couldn’t bring myself to believe them. But after a while, I started to feel like they might be right. I observed many of my friends who had been abruptly been broken up with just like me and they were all doing fine now.

I began to feel to feel a sense of hope that I might be doing fine one day as well. And now I am. It’s still a work in progress and I still feel pain sometimes, but I see the light at the end of this very dark tunnel.

So I just want to thank you for breaking my heart. If you hadn’t, I wouldn’t know what it’s like to hit rock bottom and then pick myself up from there. If I didn’t know how it feels to reach my lowest point, I wouldn’t fully understand how strong I am. Thank you for crushing me. Now I realize that I had lost myself in you. Now I can focus on getting myself back to the incredible and single person I was before I was even been in a relationship. Thank you for making me see the beauty in this breakdown.

At the same time, thank you for the love that you gave me. If you had never loved me, I wouldn’t know how beautiful life is. You added so many colors to my world. For the first time in my life, I understood every love song, every smile and every blue sky. Love makes life worth living and without you I would have never known how true that is. This entire heartbreak wouldn’t have hurt so badly if we didn’t love each other so passionately. We didn’t end on bad terms and maybe someday we’ll reunite but for now, I just want to thank you for helping me see the splendor in this cruel world.

So thank you for giving me this remarkable experience of loving and losing. I’ve never felt more emotions in my entire life. I’ve also never felt more accomplished. I think a part of me will always love you. But I know that every part of me will forever feel grateful that you loved me, broke my heart and showed me what I’m really made of. 

You were essentially my everything, i would have gone to the end of the earth for you. I never thought i will fall deeply for another person until you came.

And then you broke my heart. You crushed it and left me with scars that will never fully go away. In the beginning, I didn’t think I would be able to make it through the heartbreak. It was the worst pain I’d ever felt. It was like you had driven me out into a desert, told me I was worthless and then drove away, leaving me there to starve and die on my own. I was absolutely terrified. Everything that I knew about my future and myself was shattered. I barely knew who I was anymore.

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Assalammualaikum gais im bek lol
It have been months ay i have a lot to say but to type it? Nay. Im typing as if people read my blog (lol) deep inside my heart i really don't want people to read this useless blog so if there's anyone who knows the existence of my blog, please.shut.the.fuck.up. And oh pardon my english, i know my english is very the "oh my english" hahah it's getting rusty..i....know ;__;

Life has been good to me,as always. tho there might be some difficulties i have to go thru but alhamdulillah, i still can manage all the problems and belum ada terfikir mok terjun bangunan. Me with boyfriend still on, 2 years yaw alhamdulillah once again:)) and my study life, getting better. Because those people i hate the most (in the world) already chow from the uitm. Hahahah i hope i wont see you around anymore,it was not a pleasure to meet you btw! :) Kahkahkah

I guess this is enuf for now. Need to hit the sack come on its already 3 am so buhbye and assalammualaikum everyone!