Everyone kept saying to me “time heals all wounds.” At first I just couldn’t bring myself to believe them. But after a while, I started to feel like they might be right. I observed many of my friends who had been abruptly been broken up with just like me and they were all doing fine now.

I began to feel to feel a sense of hope that I might be doing fine one day as well. And now I am. It’s still a work in progress and I still feel pain sometimes, but I see the light at the end of this very dark tunnel.

So I just want to thank you for breaking my heart. If you hadn’t, I wouldn’t know what it’s like to hit rock bottom and then pick myself up from there. If I didn’t know how it feels to reach my lowest point, I wouldn’t fully understand how strong I am. Thank you for crushing me. Now I realize that I had lost myself in you. Now I can focus on getting myself back to the incredible and single person I was before I was even been in a relationship. Thank you for making me see the beauty in this breakdown.

At the same time, thank you for the love that you gave me. If you had never loved me, I wouldn’t know how beautiful life is. You added so many colors to my world. For the first time in my life, I understood every love song, every smile and every blue sky. Love makes life worth living and without you I would have never known how true that is. This entire heartbreak wouldn’t have hurt so badly if we didn’t love each other so passionately. We didn’t end on bad terms and maybe someday we’ll reunite but for now, I just want to thank you for helping me see the splendor in this cruel world.

So thank you for giving me this remarkable experience of loving and losing. I’ve never felt more emotions in my entire life. I’ve also never felt more accomplished. I think a part of me will always love you. But I know that every part of me will forever feel grateful that you loved me, broke my heart and showed me what I’m really made of. 

Nine

Assalammualaikum..

I have nothing to do so i dig everyone's past lol and i found their old blogs. some are still active and some are missing in action hahah. Reminiscing the old good times ~ aaahh i feel good. Lot of things happened. I HAD lot of friends back then. Closed ones. I would spend my every weekend with them. They were like my family lol but now pufffff all are gone. I started to lose friends when i was in form 4. I am so glad that some are still close with me,since the very first beginning until now.
But I do feel sad that some of us no longer close like we used to..especially ex classmates. We all were like a family,very close and we even text each other everyday! Tapi yalah. Masing2 masih busy mengato future. I hope they will do a reunion some day. Masa dah kerja maybe? Aminnnn. I want to see them again, to have a nice talks argh i miss everyone..

Five

Today. Tiring day. But worth it. Get to spend some times with boyfriend yay sebab lately jarang jumpa bcs he is getting ready for his upcoming finals. Goodluck yang! And went out with Che and her mama at night. Do stupid things with her is a MUST. Aku tok aok ajak apa yg disuroh. I am tired kaki pun penat i wanna sleep goodnight assalammualaikum! 

Two

I love long distance relationship. I love the feeling when you get to see loved ones after a long time. I love the strong heartbeats that you'll get before you meet someone after the long awaited. I love the feeling of "I finally can spend times with you in a real world, not texting nor calling". I sometimes envy with the couples who have this LDR thingy. And I even get jealous with those couples who skype everynight just to see each others' faces. Don't you think it is the sweetest thing ever? 

But when it actually comes to me...i am not sure whether i still love it or not. Lol. I once asked my boyfriend about this. It actually scares me. I will finish my diploma next year,which means im no longer here, in Kuching (i want to get a job, experience of being in hospitality/tourism industry first then i'll pursue my degree insyaAllah) eventho Miri is still in Sarawak, but still jaoh okay..it will be hard for us to meet each other since my boyf is planning to do a master after he finish his degree next year T.T I don't like the idea that we gonna be far away from each other since I used to have him around for these 2 years..uwek #clingygirlfriend lol 

Pasrah ajak lah oh.. Just like what he said "Lets just follow the flow, okay?" "Sik apa, kita jaga bna relationship tok, okay?" "Iboh mntak break sebarang, okay?" Lol, okay, noted.

Lets just put the trust on Him. He knows better than us. If it's mean to be, it will be. Insyaallah..